Hampa

 
It's been 3 years already, since we both agreed to have a mini trip around europe, but it was cancelled. Sad? Indeed, dumped me after those beautiful years. And now, told me she is getting married soon, don't know when exactly, but I am happy for you too.

No, I won't discuss about my love story right now, no mood. Let me tell you a story, in Indonesian language.

Panggil saja namanya Ari, mahasiswa komunikasi semester 5 di salah satu universitas terkenal di Jakarta, anak yang tampan, enerjik dan santun. Berasal dari keluarga baik-baik. Ari dibesarkan dengan ajaran agama yang kuat, tetapi dengan kehidupan Jakarta yang keras, pergaulan bebas Ari menjadi terjerumus dengan hal seperti itu.
Bukan masalah sebenarnya, walaupun begitu Ari tetap menjadi anak baik, favorit dosen dan teman-temannya.

Suatu hari Ari terbangun disebuah kamar hotel, tanpa sehelai kain menempel di badannya, dia membuka matanya dan menemukan Vera tertidur disebelahnya dibawah selimut, wanita cantik yang dia temui di club tadi malam. Dia pandangi Vera yang masih tertidur pulas, sambil bertanya kepada hatinya sendiri kenapa wanita secantik ini ingin tidur bersamanya. Dia cantik, mempunyai gelar sarjana, kenapa tidak jadi model atau pramugari saja? Daripada menjadi pemuas syahwat lelaki hidung belang seperti dirinya.

KRIIIIIINGGG.....

Alarm handphonennya berbunyi.
Ari mematikan alarm dan saat itu juga Vera hanya mendesah dan merubah posisi tidurnya, memunggungi Ari. Saatnya untuk Ari bekerja shift pagi ditempat dia magang.

Sudah hampir satu semester Ari menghiraukan panggilan telpon bapaknya, menurut dia, bapak hanya pengganggu, sedikit-sedikit telpon dan menanyakan kabar yang tidak penting.
Dalam hati terdalam, Ari sadar dia salah, tapi ego masih menyala dengan terangnya, dia beralasan "masih banyak urusan yang harus gue kerjain, toh si Andita masih bisa ngurus bapak, gue juga transfer bulanan walaupun gak banyak".

Ari masih menjadi mahasiswa cemerlang, pintar berbicara sehingga sering dijadikan MC pada berbagai event, kehidupan serba cukup walau ngekos masih bisa dia rasakan, nilai ujiannya selalu bagus, tapi dia merasa hampa.
Mengapa dia tidak bisa bahagia? Mengapa hanya dia bisa tersenyum dan tertawa lepas saat menjadi MC saat event tetapi raut sedih selalu muncul saat dia sendirian.

Ari hanya berharap jangan sampai ada Ari yang hampa lagi...

Surabaya, rainy day, 14 Ramadhan

Hi June!

Hi June!

With your presence it means that my happy birthday month disappeared. Well, it was amazing month, meet new people, new experiences, jumped here and there to work in several hospitals and clinics.
Yeah, I received so many gifts in May, have to say Alhamdulillah, and now I am confuse how to repay them lol.
How I am supposed to eat six cakes?

Besties

I didn't always celebrate my birthday with friends, but my 25th Birthday should be special because it's my silver birthday party, should be different, right?
At the end of May I got a chance to visit Jakarta (again), crowded city but a lot of good food stall there <3 a="" font="" have="" i="" list="" make="" next="" place="" to="" visit.="" visit="" which="">

I got a new violin and now I am confuse how to play it, it's difficult for me t play the basic. and also I got a HnM winter jacket and Tee, so fancy from my dearest Ibenk. (thanks man!)

I am thinking about to change my phone, but I don't know, should I? Xiaomi Redmi 4i, the problem is only in memory, only 16 GB no place for external memory.

You can see my photos in May, favorite photos!


Swimming with the gank

TRX with gym buddies

Selfie of Silvia


Just like a boyband, duh!

My favorite man! Amal Bastian

Aurat exposed lol!


Share Your Difficult Feelings With the One You Love

Having a partner who is willing to listen, and not judge, is a wonderful gift.



When things aren't going well in your world, are you the kind of person who talks about it, or do you push down your discomfort, so you can try to avoid thinking about your problems and feeling bad? 
Research has shown us that people who repress their feelings usually have a harder time dealing with life's disappointments. In addition, holding in painful emotions has been linked to illness and emotional distress (as a doctor i have to say YES!) It also sucks up a lot of time that could be used for much more pleasant activities.
Some people have great difficulty dealing with disappointment. And when additional things in life are troublesome, like problems in your relationship, those issues become magnified. That rush of emotions can easily throw anyone off course. The trick here is to concentrate on what stabilizes you and talk about your troubles with the people in your life who are care about you. They are usually readily available to talk, especially if they know that showing their concern in a conversation will help you during an emotionally challenging time.

They say talk is cheap, but it is really one of the most valuable things you can do to move your life forward and lessen your pain. It is also a true gift of friendship and love. When you take the risk of putting yourself out there to someone you trust, most often you’ll find yourself rewarded with some relief and perhaps some new ways of dealing with a problem that you’re having.
Truly, if you feel you have no one who will listen to what’s going on in your life, or no friend with whom you can talk about your difficulties, it is time you found someone. You can go to a licensed counselor or other helping professional. The hardest part may be picking up the phone and making an appointment.
Sometimes you want a different kind of emotional support, and that's perfectly fine. Just don't pour your heart out to a bartender. Finding a good support group would be much better. In that context, you’ll find other people dealing with similar issues to your own, so you won’t have to feel judged or alone.
Along these lines, when you are ready or you get the opportunity to share your feelings, it’s best to do it sober, because you will be unable to purge the pain if you are intoxicated. Alcohol is a drug that numbs our feelings, and while having a drink may seem appealing at times, it is not a lifestyle that will keep you healthy and feeling good about your world. Talking about your troubles over a glass of wine may seem like a good idea, but it really only works in the movies.
Unburdening your head and heart, or simply talking about what’s going on inside you, may be something you have thought of doing for some time but have been reluctant to try. Please consider how much you can lighten your life and the lives of those around you by using your words to gain clarity and release your pain. Give yourself that gift.
- Barton Goldsmith. Ph.D

Hi Blog!

No, I won't say sorry anymore, it's been almost three years I know.

Wait? Why do you want to write a journal again, Alle? (Alle? Yes, my nick name is Alle for now, but you still can call me Sal or Leh).
Let me tell you why.
Now I am officially a doctor, I am working in 2 hospitals in emergency departement, and in several private clinics. Yesterday my buddy Amal (MC, writer, traveller, news anchor) texted me, he asked me where's my hospital position and he wanted me to inject Vitamin C, we did it and saw his funny nervous face is priceless lol.
After that procedure, we sit together and chit-chat, about our friend, esthetic, and finally we talked about blog/web journal. He said by writing he balancing his life (or body? I just heard "balance"), don't know why I am thinking his words till the night, he is right! I have to write again!
So that's why I am starting to write again, fyi I forgot the password to open my blogger using google account, so randomly I typed the password many times and voila! I am in!

Just wait for another stories from my life in here, see ya!